WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU FEEL BAD ABOUT YOURSELF?
When you start to make something new, you probably afraid of the rejection and your work might not be accepted by people. You feel the powerful energy at beginning of the process but suddenly you didn’t feel the way it used to be. You do everything you can and then you let it go. You feel terrible to continue, too deeply embarrassing, because you feel nobody care about it.
I have to admit, it is the truth. I experience the same thing. At first, I’m worried about what people will think of me. I got so many abandoned artworks and craft projects piling on my desk. It’s hard to break from this insecurity and doubt. But I don’t want unfinished works to keep on piling, and then I give up and completely stop. I don’t want any of that.
I must persist.
After a few months of struggling, and finally start to breathe freely, I have decided that I don’t give a damn what anyone thinks of me. People may have opinions about me and my work (for a short while) and then everyone moved one.
I am intrigued by what Elizabeth said in her book, “nobody was ever thinking about you, anyhow.” There aren’t. They weren’t. They never were.
Why? It is because people are mostly just thinking about themselves.
People don’t have time to worry about what I’m doing, or how well I am doing it because each one of us caught up in our own dramas.
But to get people attention’s drawn to me even for a moment (I’m lucky if a get more than a minute) I have to make sure my “drama” worth to be watched! I know the attention will soon revert right back to where it’s always been – on themselves.
There’s nothing wrong about it. Let them be in their own space and time. You can’t force people to look at you all the time and put the pressure on yourself to think “what trick I must do today, in order to glue everyone eyes on me?”
Take this advice, seriously.
Those who mind, don’t matter. Those who matter, don’t mind.
Care about your past. Live at this present moment so you won’t regret in the future. All you have to do is to take care of your present time – your personal achievements.
- Write about What you did.
- Write about How you did that.
- Write about Who helped or inspired you.
- Write about When it happened.
If it imperfect work, let it be. If you can complete something, merely finish it. If you can run, then run. If you need to walk, then walk. If you can’t run or walk, then crawl. Done is better than good.
Finish what you started.