Pencil Drawing by Cha Niki 09.03.2019
“O tiger’s heart wrapped in woman’s hide” William Shakespeare

“Yeah, I’m very negative about my work but I think I have a reason to be because it’s just not anywhere as good as I would like it to be. I want to be an animator. But that takes a lot of talent that I don’t have.”

Replied a fellow member from Artist Inner Family after she read my comment to her post in that group.

“It’s ok to feel bad. That’s mean you’re learning. You can compare, but you can only compare to the previous you. Keep that drawing. One day you will need it after years of practice. Just imagine how great you will be if you consistent.”

I gave her a piece of advice, but the truth is, I’m telling it to myself.

What I told her, is about Passion and Curiosity.

What you create is not necessarily always great, just because you think it’s great. What you create is not necessarily always bad, just because you think it’s bad. What is great is the time you spend working on the project, and what that expanded imagination does to transform your life.

Forget about Passion, Follow Your Curiosity

“All you need to do is to follow your passion, and everything will be damn fine!” That can be an unnecessary piece of advice, as I always talk about it to other people until I learn the truth about CURIOSITY. 

Passion is like an interest that you chase obsessively, ALMOST because you have no choice. But I know, some people I met, they don’t know exactly what their passion is, or they have multiple passions (like me) or they may be going through a midlife change of passion – which can leave them feeling confused, blocked and insecure.

If you don’t have a clear passion, and somebody blithely tells you to go follow your passion – That’s actually doesn’t help at all! 

I’m a passionate person myself. I love to draw. I love to paint. I love to sew. I love to write. I love to read. But sometimes, I have no idea where my passion has gone off to. I don’t always feel inspired. I don’t always feel so sure what to do next. I just feel so lazy and demotivated!

One thing for sure, I don’t like to sit doing nothing. I keep working steadily, just do anything that sparks joy! I enjoy making things. It can be anything that is so simple and look stupid. How to find inspiration to work when the passion has gone?

Ladies & Gentlemen,

Let us give him a round of applause, Mr.Curiosity! 

He’s the secret, the truth and the way of creative living. Curiosity is accessible to anyone. Passion can seem out of reach at times, but curiosity is more welcoming and waving at us smilingly.

One simple question from Mr. Curiosity.

“Is there anything you’re interested in?”

Anything? Even a tiny bit? No matter how small it is?

At that moment, you pause and think. Try to identify even one tiny speck of interest in something, the curiosity will ask you to turn your head and look at the thing a bit closer.

JUST DO IT!

It’s a clue! Follow the clue. It seems like nothing to you at the beginning. See where it lead you to the next and next and next – eventually, it leads you to amazing unexpected places. It may lead to your passion or somewhere else.

Do not wait until you regret saying this “I wish I start to do it 20 years ago.

You might spend the rest of your life following your curiosity and have nothing to show at the end. EXCEPT FOR ONE THING!

You will feel satisfied and content. You feel enough from the inside, knowing that you passed your entire existence in devotion for acquiring knowledge.

“Your curiosity is your growth point. Always.” – Danielle LaPorte

©Cha Niki. 2019